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Name: Agatha
Gender: Female
Interests: boys??...hahaha...cute stuff...doing crazy things...being cruel at times...doing fun things with the pepole i love...talking on the fone...laffing for no reason...books...clean clothes...cute shirts...skirts..
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AIM:  babypnayx
Yahoo:  pnayluver03@yahoo.com
Member Since:
11/11/2004
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| "Never leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love."
but how can you actually know if the one you love is really the one you love??? i must admit i still find other guys cute, and i've been feeling guilty, because kurt never looks at another girl, even if i push him too or even if i say im okay with it. Never did he once looked at nother girl or was even tempted to do so. this is a quote i never want to do in my life although i must admit that i have been thinkin' about it. it's not that i doubt kurt and i, it's just that how would you really know that the person you are with now is really the one for you without letting destiny do it's job. He believes that we are meant for each other. but i still find it guilty leaving him for this one boy in my Spanish class. Every time I think about it, it breaks my hurt. I do love Kurt , but somewhere deep down i can't find myself thinking that he might not be the one for me.
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| yay!!happy new year..i know it's late and i was suppose to write last night but i got sleepy..anyways..i made a new years resolution..
1] to make my family not mad at me nemore
2] to have good grades
3] to be a nicer and better girlfriend to kurt
4] to be a good sister, daughter, friend, girlfriend, person
5] to sing in church
6] to focus on my studies and not wait the last minute to do my projects
7] not be judgemental
8] gain as much weight as i can
9] have fun in life and treasure it
10] finish watching full house :)
11] save money :P
12] show my family that kurt doesn't cause me to have bad grades and to make them understand me that some courses are hard for me and that i will graduate and go to ucsd or to uc irvine
13] nicer to people
14] keep my relationships with the people i love and make it better
that was a long resolution list..but hopefully i will be able to do those..
"opening doors, jumping, or having fruits, or having coins in your pocket and shake them doesn't have to do with anything, it's up to you to make your destiny and to bring yourself luck"
-my sister (01-02-07)
yay!! we took pictures yesterday..
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| first time that i blogged in here agen..uhmm..wat's new???
first: my grades are bad..the first time i had a D and i sort of took it ok..weird..not like me to take a D like that..but i vowed myself that there will be a new and imporved AGATHA next semester..
two: christmas break is coming..YAY!!..but it sucks cuz i have to stay home and clean almost all the time..but hopefully not...
three: sux i have homework for ms.berwick..
four: this thursday willbe our 8 months....
five: uhmmm...oh and recently we added a new kid..YAY!!!! his name is aero..yeah yeah..we got...well actually my brother then and i asked for it so it's me...i got it from aeropostale..thus came the name aero..and plus that's wat he has on his shirt..so this week will be a shopping week for me and kurt...
presents presents presents..driving me crazy...
this christmas i will..seriously..forget to hate people..like the song said "give love on christmas day" and that's wat i'll do..ill be good and try not to hate peopel...especially get mad at kurt...speaking of kurt..i dn't knw wat to get him...hmmm....anyone have any ideas???
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| today was a fun day..i had a fun time..we got PAC shirts..yay!!! then after skul went to ginang's to help pepole for mag-kaisa this friday..err..ginang made me business manager, but no one listens and even respects..i understand f i u say wait..but helloooo..say it nicely would be good??newaiz i'm quitting for sure..magka-isa s the last time im in ugnayan..after that im prolly in PAC forever..maybe i'll jst be the preseident or watevr...uhmm after that me and kurt sped our way to Golden Chopsticks..and all the way we kept thinking that were so bad pepole cuz we kept them waiting..but it turns out that they were thinking that wya too..and at the same time as me and kurt were going out we saw them and we all started laughing..we got our meals and laffed through out..then we went to goldicks..we were so amazed at the cakes and everything and our stomach started hurting agen cuz we didn't know goldilocks were a restaurant too..and then we went to this store w/ clothes and me and kristine liked their dresses and i realliked one and she made me try one..and it fit me perfectly and everyone thot i looked good..i think im gonna buy that for winterball..me and kristine are going back there agen too shop..and then went to big lots..after that we parted..brother called on the way home..and they got mad cuz i didn't call altho i've been calling everytime i go out so they (brother and sister??)sed that f i kept making them mad they'll tell the police or hurt..well i've always been hurt..wats the use??yeah they hurt me to discipline me..it's how it's been..ever since i was a little kid..everytime i make a mistake my brother always hurts me..or sister cuz she threw everything that she saw...i wanted to call kurt and tell him but he was busy w/ his tae kwon do and i didn't wanna bother him..i wanted him to stay home so f i fell bad or down i cld jst call him..but it's ok..i knw there are things in his life that are more important than me and i udnerstand..and plus he's always w/ me..so i can ask his everyy second to be w/ me..i gues si've gone used to the fact that wenever i call him it's ok..but i nd't knw..i need to get used ot the fact that he'll be busy and he has other things in his life that he loves and is very close to his heart and he enjoys doing it.."I HAVE TO LEARN" never hurts..there are times wen i need him and i dn't show him and i wished he wld notice but it's ok..i knw he has his own battles, there are times wen i need him badly and there he is on my side..there are times wen i need him and i wan tto him to know but i dn't want to appear weak in front of him..i dn't knw f he knws that im hurting inside through this facade i put everyday at skul..mostly because of my family..and stress of skul..i jst don't wanna tell kurt altho he sed that f they get mad at me i can make fun of him and taunt him but i wldn't do that..it wldn't be nice..and yeah..i dn't wan thim to feel sad..better for me to feel the pain than me seeing him suffer because of me..so yeah.."OH HAPPY DAY" is coming in 2 days...i cried because of a silly book but it s really sad but i didn't know it would also mean that im emotionally hurting inside..hurts wen u try to say wat u need to say and blab wat abt they think..hurts wen no one jst listens to me w/o adivce wen i dn't need one..i need an ear..like right now..no one's listening to me..i dn't need ot amke the first moves..u knw it will come out..jst be patient..everyone knws how i am..i dn't say it first but wen it eats me up inside u knw eventually it will come out of my mouth and that's the time wen u wipe the tears from my eyes, hug me and tell me that ur there and u listened to wat i say(w/o putting ur adivce/opinion) and that everything will be better, that this happened for a reason..i guess i thot i was strong but turns out im still the same like before..nothing really new about me..except that im falling inlove everyday...i hide things because i dn't want pepole to be worried abt me..i hide things because i dn't want to talk abt it sinc eim not ready.. i hide things because i thnk no one wld listen to me..i hide things because im afraid no one would understand me..i hide things because i wait for the right time..
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| "i
will always love you" is a song i'll always treasure in my
heart...yes..wat we had was special and it was real..when u sent me
that song..i cried as i was talkign to u..that song brings a lot of
memories from the past..our memories..i
never thot i'd cry agen about u..i really will miss you...that's not a
lie..that's the truth..i will miss you..i really have faith in you..and
be careful..i hope that u really are doing this for yourself not for
anyone else..one of these days i'll say goodbye to u in person... i
never thot i would miss u this much..mybe because i knw ur jst a phone
call away...a hour-and a half walk ...and 10 mins.w/ a car..i guess i
was used to that..now that ur gone..it's really different..i wouldn't
be able to reach u on my cellie nemore..wala ng mag-le-lecture sa
akin..gosh..im starting to cry agen..but don't worry i'll be fine..i
have kurt that would help me be strong... i
nver figured that my sister wasn't asleep..i thot she was sleeping
already..it's hard for me to tell her y i was crying that
night...mybe..she would understand..after all she has problems
also..but what f she wouldn't?..what f she still was angry..?? what f
she says that watever i felt for him was not real and that this time
with kurt isn't either..wat f she tells me that i dn't knw wat love is
yet??but she is my sister i love her and i do like hearing her
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